I hope this won't be the last post I'm going to make, about the sad reality of my love story.

He is the man I want, the person I love, the person I want to be with for the rest of my life. He is the man I wanna give my entire life and my whole world. At first I'm full of hope that we will last and will end up being together savoring the moment of being with each other's arms.
We love each other so much, he is my life and I am his. We promised to stay forever and remain strong until the end. But why? why? why life is so cruel for us? We wanted to marry but why the situation doesn't want us to do so? We've been so prayerful and optimist about the future.
I've cried so many nights and I've seen him crying. For more than a year of being in a long distance relationship this part of our lives is the most hurting and really depressing.
He told me he can't stay like this anymore. This isn't the kind of relationship he wants. He decided to give an end point, a date, like a dead line for a project, that our relationship will only be until that point if things that we planned won't happen as we want it.
What's the more painful feeling other than being told by the person you love the most that the relationship you've saved for more than a year will end soon?
The plans you made together, the laughter you shared together, the games you played online, the efforts and the things you have both given up just to keep each other. They're all senseless. The promises that have been said are nothing but just words that have no meaning and essence.
I wish God will help us again. I love him so much. I told him to give me a child before he will decide to leave me. That way I will not be growing old alone, because I couldn't think of someone else other than him. I couldn't think of someone else that will be with me for the rest of my life. I only want and need him.
I am selfish because I know he has to give-up everything if he choose to be with me. But how can I be unselfish? If I am just so in love with him and that I would die if he leaves me. I am so depressed for all of these. I hope the military wont be a hindrance to our happiness. I hope God will help us. We need to see each other, to be able for me to show him how much I love him. I know he loves me so much and it hurts me so much knowing I am so incapable of showing him how grateful and blessed I am to have him. I hope our story wont end here. I need God in my life and the person I love the most. I need God to help us and keep us together.
Until next post..
This is my way to let out all my emotions, especially the hardships I feel inside.